Whatever happened to that one girl?

I used to know this one girl. 

She was feisty, spunky, spoke her mind and didn't take any shit from any one. 

Her name was Michelle and I thought she was pretty cool. 

I don't know why, but she went away a few years ago. She pulled away from the things she loved and became depressed. She hid her real feelings and forgot that her opinion was key to her happiness. And though I would run into her once in a awhile the times it did became fewer and fewer and I would go years without so much as a glimpse.  

That made me sad.

The last year I have tried multiple times to get back in touch with her. And while she did make several appearances it seemed I couldn't coerce her into staying around for very long. I think her insecurities got the best of her sometimes and she thought it was safer to hide. 

But joy of joys! She has been around more the last couple days, more so than she has been for a long time.

And this morning she was with me when I woke up this morning. You can't comprehend how happy I was when she told me that she decided she wanted to come back. And that while it will be difficult she has promised to stick it out, no matter what happens.

First thing is no more lying to herself. She got into a bad habit of sugar coating and not being honest when confronted. She would lie and pretend everything was okay when it most certainly was not. Why? Maybe she thought it was for the benefit of others. She had convinced herself that it was because she did not want to hurt another person's feelings instead of thinking of her own feelings? Who knows, but it is ending. She knows while no one likes a harshly blunt person there are polite ways to be truthful. And although not everyone likes the truth she doesn't want to pretend anymore. 

She believes that it was this one thing, the smile and nod and agreeing for "politeness" sake that caused her to lose her muchness. 

And this is why it must end. 

Hopefully old friends will remember the spunky Michelle.

Hopefully they have not grown accustomed to the placating Michelle.

Hopefully new friends will remember the glimpses of the real Michelle and not be surprised or too terribly offended when they see all the time.

And it all of these hopes fall flat on their face?

Oh well.

Disappointment is a part of life and we all have to get used to it, right?

Right.

Sunshine, Love and Happiness all

Michelle